Away (and see)

I have moved!

House that is. Down to the south, ready to start college. My room is slowly taking upon character; I’m looking forward to cooking. Today I walked all the way to the beach (an hour by foot) and it was beautiful. The autumn sun was shining strong and the sunlight fell dappled through the leaves. There were pinecones on the ground, and at the shore the sea was sparkling and the sands warm and soft.

I’ve actually been doing a lot of sewing lately and just have to photograph things! I want to get back into the habit of writing this blog.

Lots of love.

Keep me warm in winter

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It’s funny to think that over a month has passed since this event and I’ve left writing about it for so long. I wanted to write a post about my birthday party in August. Here it is.

I turned eighteen last July. How exciting. I decided to throw a  quilt sewing party, and held it whilst my parents were enjoying the rain in Cornwall, on a date in August exactly three weeks after my birthday.

Quilt sewing? My mother thought declared that I must be mad, but my friends were actually quite excited at the idea. As was I – of course. I’m going to art school all by myself and leaving all of my friends behind me, so the idea of having a quilt with patches sewn by all of them was one that warmed the cockles of my heart. (Och, aye!) I found the idea quite amusing, but genuinely looked forward to it.

It was to be a small affair. Invitations were sent out (on Facebook. I’m a modern sort of old-fashioned girl…) and I asked all of my closest friends. My collection of friends is such a hodge-podge mix, pulled out from all different parts of my life, hoped that they’d get along…and assumed that the quilt would be enough of a distraction to prove a lubricant for any social awkwardness that might be. Annoyingly, as many as six people couldn’t make it, due to such reasons family holidays and spur-of-the-moment, last-minute escapes from London, but although I felt their loss (these were some of my best friends, after all), I don’t think that anyone else was really bothered.

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The party was a Tuesday, and I was up past midnight the day before just cleaning and tidying the house. I think at one point I phoned my boyfriend saying ‘It’s nearly one in the morning. I’m just making the buttercream icing for the cake.’ I spent hours the next day decorating too, and had lots of fun doing so; this surely bodes well for my future career as a set dresser – should I have to do that.

Conditions of entry to the party were to bring Something To Eat and Something To Drink, and might I add that I stressed the Something To Drink need not be alcohol. I provided various edibles as well (including a poppyseed cake which we forgot to cut) and jugs of pussyfoot (giggle), that bitter-sweet abstemious cocktail, and sangria, which was far from abstemious.
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Arranged plastic glasses, faux pearls, birthday cards, chairs lined up in a row

I thought out the decor quite nicely. I had a section for inspiration, another for quilt-planning, a third for the making of the quilt. I also found lots of board games, and pulled out various films to watch.I put up all of my birthday cards again, and generally pretended that it was my birthday all over again, but this time surrounded by my friends. It was lovely. I hung fairy lights on the walls, and put up my mink coats as part of the decoration.

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One of the most wonderful things was bringing all of my friends together like this, and have the people who meant a lot to me – usually part of very different groups socially – under one roof. Another was being in control of the evening, and getting to play whatever music I wanted. (Cue Ella Fitzgerald and Billie Holiday at full volume on the stereo, haha!)

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The idea was to design and sew the quilt first, then eat, drink, dance around and watch a film afterwards. Of course this totally didn’t go as planned – one of my friends found the sangria minutes after arrival – and, well, the evening ended in such events as: people dressing up in my fur coats, tear-filled phone conversations which oughtn’t have been made, horrible piano-playing whilst under the influence, injuries, sobering up and dancing to Rocky Horror…and far too long spent pumping up a blow-up mattress.

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Evidence of quilt-sewing

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The house was a total mess the next morning.

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All bar two, minus the 6 that couldn’t make it. A spot of dinner before we returned to the quilt.


I’m still waiting for people to finish their quilt patches.

Through the trees comes autumn with her serenade

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Click to enlarge, and to bask in the sunshine of my scribbly, undetailled drawings

On Sunday last week I walked over leaves which had dried, withered and fallen.

Last Monday I sang September Song with a friend as we realised it was the first of the month.

Suddenly the autumn has descended upon us; it feels different in the air. I feel as if autumn equals wearing hats and scarves and knitting, and go about in a cardigan lent to me by my grandfather.  Wearing a cloche hat and knee socks, and skirts and scarves, with black shoes that have heels on and Mary-Jane straps. That Nineteen Twenties masculine silhouette.

I think that cleaning is meant to come in the spring, to do with getting rid of the old stuff and welcoming in the new seasons? In Chinese culture it’s very important that you clean before the onset of the Chinese new year. This is because there’s a superstition that if you do your cleaning at the beginning of the year, you’ll be sweeping away all of the good luck. Chinese culture is full of superstitions like that. Another one is that it’s bad luck to have a mirror facing your bed.

Of course it’s all rubbish, but superstitions can be quite interesting. And as a rule they have pragmatic roots. (It’s good to start the new year with a clean house, it’s an excuse to force you to dust those shelves which haven’t been dusted in, oh, thirteen moons or so. And also so that you don’t embarass yourself with your slovenly house when your relatives come round to pay their ang pow-laden visits. Additionally, if you wake up in the middle of the night and the first thing that you see is your reflection – well, you might give yourself a fright!)

But in any case, it’s neither the spring or the new year. It’s autumn now, and I’m doing the cleaning. Trying to empty my room is saddening; I’ve packed away nearly all of my two-hundred-odd books to go into storage at my grandparents’  house. Suddenly it feels very cold in my bedroom. I used to make jewellery, and so hundreds of glass beads which I refuse to throw out are also being put away. Meanwhile I throw things out and bag things up for the charity shop, and wonder how, oh how, will I be able to fit my sewing equipment into my room in Bournemouth? How have I accumulated all of this stuff, and how is it that I cannot seem to get rid of it?

And draw, draw, draw

Space: desk, paper. Watercolour, gouache (experimenting), brushes, palette, rag. Off-screen are acrylics. The red-topped jar sequins lives on my desk, obviously.

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Initial sketch (above) is the bust of an 18th Century lady. She has a backwards bass clef in her head…reminiscent of the Queen of the Night? Who knows? It’s just a doodle, really.

Second sketch (below) and I’m rubbing out her face. I can’t get it right. But it’s smaller.

Watercolour pancake (left) because I want to get midnight blue into it but not sure how or why.

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Some painting…

At this point I’ve sparked off several ideas, made several mistakes, then given up and written this one off as an experiment. It’s my first time on gouache (the tricorne hat). By this point it’s become over-planned and thus isn’t worthy of being exterior to the sketchbook.

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Then on the fly. Black ink.

When in doubt, go back to what you know. And ink always forces me to be more fluid. So I drew, drew, drew. And came up with a wind-up toy which reminds me of something by Man Ray or André Breton. Which again isn’t surprising as they’re two of my favourite artistes.

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Cut + Stick: it’s made into a card. I forgot to photograph it.

And I gave it to my cello teacher, who’s taught me for 11 or 12 years (We can’t decide which), hence the bass clef hair ornament. She liked it rather a lot…well if anything she can sell it off to make a few quids when I’m wonderfully famous.

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Well well, why why!

For some it’s little children with iconic faces, others flora or fauna. Or, perhaps even more commonly, is the female nude. Personally a recurrent visual theme in my illustration is 18th Century ladies.

Or at least, it is at the moment. The 18th Century is my favourite period in costume history.  The mix of opulence and filth, decadance and glory, gilded luxury rotting from within and people with black black cores. Oh, it’s just wonderful; I can’t express it.  Yes, I have a massively soft spot for the Art Deco period, particularly the Orientalist strain; and yes I also love the 1940s and 1950s – those being the decades that I choose to buy my dress patterns from. But when we’re talking of theatricality, who can quibble? I dare you challenge me, for I’ll easily talk you down. The mid to late 18th Century in Britain and France just tops all others.

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This one I burlesque’d up a little, adding (historically inaccurate) stockings with suspenders, and leaving out the sort of underskirt section, usually roughly triangle-shaped and made of gorgeous fabrics. Playing with scale and height in terms of exagerrated accessories, which I personally love in burlesque outfits. Well I love hats in general, don’t I? This one is also historically inaccurate, since the top hat was much more of a 19th Century trend. But I feel that it adds to the burlesque feel.

It’s quite a rough drawing really. Last week I worked at the HQ of the underwear company Playful Promises and it was a thank-you-for-having-me card which I made for the girls at the office. Incidently, I really enjoyed working there. As well as being the general skivvy, obligatory for work experience, I did lots of jobs for one of the designers, including actual designs for some of their clients. I swore a few years ago that I wouldn’t end up in a 9-5 desk job at an office, but if I did have to work one I think that I wouldn’t be so unhappy at somewhere like that.

It’s actually a great brand, with inventive lingerie designs that, being fairly commercial, aren’t so far out of the price range of most. I really like their styling, especially the 50s-feeling shoots (no surprises there!), and their colours. As a thank you gift they gave me some knickers and a silk corsage underwear set, and I can tell you happily that the latter really is as gorgeous in person – and to wear! – as it looks on the website.

The company also work with various other brands, and their own brand underwear is in fact used by burlesque performers (the lady who runs it did list out loads of performers to me but I’m afraid that they mostly went over my head! Burlesque pseudonyms are all quite similar, really…), so the burlesque-feel card was surely appropriate.

Now, to plan a burlesque troop down in Bournemouth…

I’m actually immensely nervous about starting university, but if I keep myself occupied (books to read for the course…outfits to design for non-existant cabaret shows…) then surely it’ll all fine ?

Marionette manipulator

I’ve been working in the puppetry workshop at the Little Angel Theatre in Angel, Islington. We’ve been putting together props for this year’s Christmas show, which should be utterly wonderful and delightful. It’s hard work (when isn’t it?) but I must say that I’m really enjoying it; it’s really fantastic to be working on a production again, especially a real and proper one (as opposed to a school one). I’ve only got to work on actual puppets once (and how exciting it was!) and not all jobs are utterly riveting (sewing sacks, anyone?) but it’s a really nice atmosphere there, and I’ve been able to contribute  towards elements of design as well.

It’s really a most magical theatre. I went there when I was a young child and it’s so lovely that I’m now working on a show there! At the moment the theatre is closed for the summer, but there are puppetry courses running (in a few weeks there’s a carving course) and their Puppet Grinder Cabaret show is touring at the Fringe festival in Edinburgh. Their September show is called Cindermouse and from what I’ve seen of the puppets and paraphernalia, it’s incredibly sweet. Borrow a child & book your tickets to see it.

If children just aren’t your thing, then hold tight for just a few more weeks for Suspense, the first London festival of puppetry (at least, for a quarter of a decade) which is entirely for adults. From talks to classes and more than a few shows, if you’re at all interested in any element of puppetry then I’m sure that you’ll find something there to tickle your fancy.  Personally I don’t think that I’ll be able to make it there because of starting art school and all that jazz, which is a shame because from the itinerary alone it looks awesome, let alone anything else.

I am, however, immensely looking forward to the Christmas show at the Little Angel. Which is ridiculous really since we’ve not reached the end of Summer yet, and so much will have happened, and be happening, by the time it comes to the run-up to the old resented season of cold and damp. (Although this year I have two mink coats to keep me warm, so hopefully I shan’t have too much to complain about.)

This summer is rattling along pleasantly. I haven’t been making things for myself personally – I’d envisaged myself designing a range of hats and making up samples, but have done nothing of the sort. I miss being able to write stories, put together poems and then assembling them into semblances of song. You can’t do everything, I suppose. I’ve been meeting lots of new people and might get a bit of work doing some sewing or styling for people. That would be grand indeed, and definitely more enjoyable than a job pulling pints. I’ve been doing a small amount of knitting, which is nice, and sewing too.

Oh, somebody commission a hat from me, please!

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www.littleangeltheatre.com

www.suspensefestival.com

Castles in Scotland

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Whilst I was in Scotland I made several visits to castles and gardens. It felt rather strange, and on the whole was surprisingly enjoyable. I suppose that I’d never pictured myself being the sort of person who went to view country houses in Britain, and in fact whilst walking about one old castle the realisation dawned upon me that the whole thing was distinctly Regency. A teacher once called those English walking holidays – like the one that Elizabeth Bennett goes upon with her uncle and aunt to the Lake District – the first kind of tourism. The whole thing is really quite British. But whilst I would probably have dreaded being dragged around them as a child, I found the whole experience as a grown-up girl really rather fun.

All in all, it’s surely quite natural that I should be so enthralled by these kinds of old houses. I’m obsessed with old clothes, so why not old furnishings? Set and costume of course go hand in hand, and I’m so glad that this realisation has dawned upon me. I shall no longer scoff at looking around the not-so dusty rooms in the future.

The day following my arrival in Aberdeen was spent at Castle Fraser, which is a pleasant drive out of the city. In terms of the house itself, it was definitely the favourite of the three places I went to in Scotland (two outside Aberdeen, and one outside Edinburgh) for a whole host of reasons. I found fewer things to catch my attention in the first few rooms we entered, but as our tour progressed up and down the castle I grew more and more interested in the things that I was seeing.

The first few rooms were really quite what were to be expected for large houses: the old-fashioned kitchen, great hall, the library, and so on. There were the obligatory high ceilings and twisty passage, and, if my memory serves me correctly, the obligatory tourist-tastic ghost stories. At this point the visit to the castle didn’t really feel like anything hugely special, although a ladies’ parlour game from the 18th century which resembled pool was an interesting concept and contraption.

As we slowly gained height and progressed through the storeys, more things began to catch my eye. I didn’t write very much down so I can’t quite remember which rooms exactly I refer to – there were a few bedrooms, a nurse’s (or governess’s? Some kind of female servant) room, and a drawing room which were of high calibre, if you like – it’s these smaller rooms that I refer to.

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Stunningly beautiful armchair, decorated with strips of tapestry work

In my opinion, what made Castle Fraser such a brilliant place to visit is that it gave a clear indication of daily domestic life for women in the 19th and early 20th centuries. There was a strong sense of the everyday; in some cases because the rooms were furnished just as they were lived in (the last lady of the house illustrated books, and her works were all around on the walls), in others simply because of the way in which they had been laid out. What I mean to say is, that some rooms were extremely connected to a particular woman, and others were more general, and merely contained artifacts relating to their usage as bedrooms. And yet, whether directly personal or less so, in all of the rooms there was a real sense of somebody having spent a portion of their life there.

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If I had to pick something which stood out of me above everything at the castle, I would say textiles, without a shadow of a doubt. The rooms which I speak of were full of the most amazing, stunning examples of beautifully-stitched, wonderful textiles. Embroidery, tapestry, patchwork, lace – when I speak of domestic life, I mean to say that it’s clear that textiles played a central role in the lives of the women who lived here.

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It perhaps shouldn’t be so surprising. Culturally, I think that we are used to the idea of women embroidering flowers or knitting socks during the day – depending on their social class this domestic needlework might range from knitting a silk purse (as in Thackeray’s Vanity Fair) to simply darning socks. But it’s my belief that Castle Fraser was one of those places which provides a kind of turning point, leading to a true realisation of just how major the role of textiles was. It dawned strongly even upon me, with my own absorption into the sector, proving that I am, after all and despite everything and all my being outmoded, a product of my time. As I said, the examples of textiles there were simply exquisite. Everything that could be decorated, or improved visually, was done so by the fitting of an embroidery of some sort. In one bedroom there was a particularly aweing quilt spread in its glory over a double bed with hangings on all sides – all hand-stitched, of course.

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There were fire screens fitted with embroideries, beautiful cushions, carpeted steps, and in one room the most beautiful white lace trimming a mantlepiece of all things. The idea of trimming a mantlepiece shelf with lace would never have occurred to me, but the sheer volume of textiles in the set of rooms which I talk of, as well as their quality and at times inventiveness, definitely says a lot about the lives of women in the “olden days”, as some are wont to call it. It’s clear that since there was so much of it, the creation of textiles was most probably about all that they did do. The results are fabulous in that there are so many well-executed pieces to pour over, and yet there’s a certain element of hopelessness embedded in the whole thing. It’s a bit like when you watch a film set in the Regency period (specifically, I’m thinking of Douglas McGrath’s 1996 adaptation of Jane Austen’s Emma starring Gwyneth Paltrow) and whilst it’s all very pretty and fresh, after a while you can’t help but notice that their lives comprise of reading, playing the piano, needlework, short walks, and gossip. There weren’t any other options for gentlewomen – of course they didn’t work. The idleness of wealth and class is something which has historically been celebrated – the use of expensive materials, the ownership of many many dresses, the possession of large and lofty houses, to demonstrate to others that you had somebody else to do the washing, ironing, cleaning for you – that you could afford to be idle. These women didn’t have anything else to do. Satisfaction in a job well done can be found easily in the creation of textiles, yet at times all this ornamentation and drapery is so superfluous, that you realise that their lives must have been so empty. And yet, conversely, textiles was something of their own – something which could be used as a way of creating community within groups of women, to bond, to do something of value and merit for theirselves, even if it was perhaps limited. I don’t have the answers; I’m sure that books have already been written. But it’s worth a visit to the house if you’re anywhere near the area, or will be paying a trip to Aberdeen. I hope that you enjoy it as much as I did.

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Information on Castle Fraser can be found on the National Trust for Scotland’s website.

Out of time

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Adademic and frothy: ‘Glamour, A History’ by Stephen Gundle, and ‘Gentlemen Prefer Blondes’ starring Marilyn Monroe and Jane Russel. How well the covers seem to go together. What a stereotype I must have looked. I was wearing a red pencil skirt, heels and red lipstick.

The Borders on Oxford Street was closing down. They were selling off their stock on half price – “How depressing!” I thought. But I decided to go along anyway. The brain reasoned it out: perhaps I’d be able to pick up some of those expensive fashion books needed for my course. Perhaps it could be worth my while. All I can say now is that I didn’t expect to be quite as affected by the loss of this shop as I was.

The death of a book shop is a sad thing. It resembled a supermarket on Saturday morning, responding to a money-off coupon in the Daily Mail. It was something about the glassy-eyed looks of the general public within, how dejected and worn out the booksellers were, and the way that people scanned and circled the shelves with a kind of base, instintive competitiveness, scouting out the gems, grabbing onto them greedily when one came up.

It was a kind of internal collapse. I admit that I hadn’t actually shopped in a Borders for a very long time. For nearly two years I worked part-time in another high street book retailer, and due to the benefit of employee discount it made little sense to shop elsewhere. Nonetheless, for a long time I really liked Borders; Ispent hours too numerous to count in the children’s department of their Charing Cross branch when I was younger, and the Oxford Street branch was particularly good – even reknown – for magazines. Much more so than any other booksellers I knew of, it was worth making a trip there for the fashion press, unusual as well as glossy.

I’m not insinuating that it was a perfect shop. The staff were skeletal, at times rude, and I often deplored their range, being as it was extremely commercial. In general I’m not a huge fan of massive chain stores, and yet I found myself honestly touched by the state of the place. All around, everywhere, there were books. Left and unloved and abandoned, mixed up on a shelf, left to rot and decay in their own state. Books, books, books, without any semblance of order or arrangement. The good stuff must’ve gone long ago, and yet it felt horrible even to think like that. Working in a book shop did make me view books as products like anything else, and yet I’ve always had a real respect for books. I’ve read scummy paperbacks and treasured, well-thumbed hardbacks. I’ve bought stacks in charity shops and shelled out too many pounds to mention on big beautiful art books. I’ve tried to write books; I’ve drawn books, bound books, used books as bookends, and more. My bedroom is full of them. The shelves buckle from the weight. The attic is stuffed full of books that I no longer read, boxes upon boxes upon boxes. And now, elsewhere, books are being treated like any old thing. People were scanning and scouting. Pouncing. I find it difficult to explain, you see, but hanging over that shop like a dirty raincloud was a sure sense of doubt and dread. Something was dead. I was lost.

Summer Love Child

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About a month ago, one of my lovely friends had a hippy party. It was originally meant to be the One Fun Thing party (in which you have to bring one fun thing, or you can’t come. We couldn’t decide if the one fun thing could be alcohol or not, or if you had to bring that as surplus). Then it morphed into the One Fun Thing party, but you have to come dressed as a hippy.  The full title of the thing (copied and pasted off the Facebook page) ended up being The Bohemian Hippie NonConformist FlowerChild FreeSpirit Party, which put it rather nicely I thought, but anyway the point being that last month I went to a hippy party.

I got there early in the afternoon to help clean and decorate, with two others of my friends. We draped the place with colourful cloths, hung fairy lights everywhere, strung fake flowers on the washing line and stuck glo-sticks in the fence. We lit incense sticks and put them everywhere in the garden. I cut hearts and stars out of tinfoil and stuck them all over the walls. In the garden, another friend laid out sheets of corrugated cardboard over the concrete floor, which we covered up with more pretty cloths. We also put up large sheets of wallpaper to do some painting, both in the hall as you walked in and at the end of the garden. It took ages and we were so tired by the end of it, but the getting ready was probably the best part of the day. I had such good, good fun.
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Below is me painting my favourite quote which was written by John Cage (really very appropriate for a hippy party, in terms of era – the 60s – and all his radicalism and so on): “Nothing is a mistake. There is no win and no fail. There is only make.” Sheena is about to scrawl the classic FREE LOVE in red paint.

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You should know that I live for dressing up (and hats, and food…), I was actually kind of in two minds about my costume for the party. The 70s is so not my era, and as such I really had very little in my wardrobe that I could wear. However whilst we were decorating, my friend and I made the discovery of the most amazing pairs of trousers, ever. I think that I am going to have to write a post all about them just because they deserve the attention.

The One Fun Thing thing didn’t really work out. My friend Daisy brought along face paints and was painting daisies on everybody. Someone else brought an electric bubble machine, which was amazing. Suddenly there were bubbles everywhere!!! But apart from that…

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The evening ended very messily, in quite an upsetting way, especially for the hostess. The preparation for the party was so exciting and fun;  the day, the evening and the night seem so disconnected and different.  On my side it involved (all separately) panic, harsh words, the discovery of 12 missed calls from the same friend, sitting on the pavement outside the house, speed walking to the station in an I <3 Barcelona T-shirt, running across platforms manically, not buying a train ticket, watching blearily as the beau and his friend played about fifteen games of pool, lying on a quilt on a floor, cereal. But things have all worked out now. And I leave you with a beautiful picture taken by Chloe.

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The cows were sitting down

Yet again I find myself apologising for my absence on this blog. I’ve been away travelling and haven’t yet re-returned to home: first to Barcelona for a week, followed by a crazy week of birthday festivities – I turned eighteen last Tuesday - and now I’m in Scotland whiling away the time drinking tea, sketching (sometimes) and talking to my family. I’m currently in Aberdeen but will be heading down to Edinburgh tomorrow, catching the train back to London on Saturday after noontime. I haven’t got anything specifically planned for my pair of days in Edinburgh, so if there’s something you feel I ought to catch please drop me a line: byanushka@gmail.com.

I’ve got a lot to write about, in terms of textiles. Not so much making, since I haven’t been able to get an awful lot of that into my schedule in recent weeks. There’s definitely a backlog, which I hope to amend when I make it back home. Meanwhile I’ll love you and leave you to your evening snack, or whatever you do with your days.

See you (perhaps) soon.

-Anushka

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